9:12 – Day 2… I am alive and I am ok… last night I ran on the treadmill and then went to the supermarket to get more fruit and vegetables. I made myself a salad with a little bit of red peppers, carrots, onions, “broccoli slaw”, mushrooms and mixed greens – I used balsamic vinegar as my dressing (healthy!) and then had my chicken fettuccini last night which tasted ok but had I not made a salad as well as added a bunch of frozen broccoli and spinach I would have died… I was a little hungry the rest of the night – had some grapes and a tangerine – and then my treat!! Smores bar!! Ok it tasted good but it was teeny tiny tiny…. (maybe I am just a pig)

9:37 – the French toast sounded a lot better than it was… first of all I forgot the syrup – somehow I assumed this would be in the box or something... nope – whatever, I had a small packet of honey that I used instead – I think that is ok. It had a container of raspberries and blueberries… I don’t like them… I try to force myself to eat most of them… this is not starting out amazing… at least I am finding out which meals I like better. So far the sunshine sandwich – sans ranchero sauce is the winner…

9:40 – when can I have my first snack?

10:03 – when can I have my first snack again? Hehe

10:23 – ok not hungry now… maybe I have heartburn? I’ll drink some water…

10:38 – at 11 I will eat my phenomenal anytime bar… and at 12 I will go to the gym. Did I lose like 5 pounds already? Hahaha also love talking about my food w/ cube neighbor. “What is that Judy?”
“It is French toast”
“is that what was prescribed for you to eat or what they suggest?”
“it is a frozen package thing that is on my planned menu”
“you made that?”
“microwaved”

I think after this week is over I will have a good idea about what kind of meals I prefer to have even if I don’t love all the ones… funny about how much they said the food was amazing… although when I do the math the meals are not that expensive – I think it averaged 16 a day… although I also have to realize that I have bought fruits and veggies.. hmmmm whatever this isn’t forever – I wonder how many weeks I will do this…

11:08 – OMG looking at bags online I almost forgot my anytime bar… although I am hungry :(

12:00 – off to the gym

2:00 - just finished “lunch”

Earlier I went to the gym and did an hour on the elliptical machine. Came back to the office to see a platter of yummy things and some fruit – I cave slightly and grab some grapes – that is ok right?! Go to the kitchen to fetch the salad to eat with my “chicken salad kit”… salad is frozen – ok in the garbage… I have some shredded carrots and some sliced mushroom that’s aight…. Open my kit to find a spork! How thoughtful! Eat my applesauce despite feeling like a child or baby with no teeth and open the can of “chicken salad” – let’s say that so far today I am not convinced that the food is “so good!” what were these people eating before? Alpo?! But ok I ate some grapes too and the mostly edible chicken salad had some crackers along with my diet coke I am sated for the time being.

2:59 – my stomach feels bubbly… gassy? I don’t know… I guess my system is not used to eating this much fruit and vegetables which is a good thing I guess. I will try and wait until at least 3:45 to eat my beloved snack which is bruschetta veggie chips… I realized that the diet doesn’t say anything about water – but I am trying to drink a lot of it – I usually do anyway… watched The Biggest Loser finale last night and I am staying focused – these people did amazing things! Almost all of them lost at least 100 pounds! I am starting to think that I really want to lose 15-20 pounds? But I guess I’ll see…

3:45 – these bruschetta chips things aren’t too bad – but again… not so much food… the one positive thing about feeling hungry is that you feel a little skinny… I mean, you know how fat you feel when you are totally stuffed full? I feel the opposite :)

4:34 – the good news is I am not really hungry right now… the bad news is I have 26 minutes counting down… hehe more water?

4:53 – time to pack up. I am getting my bikini laser-ed and then chill time!

Ok FYI - last night I joined a new dieting thingie that gives you pre-made meals - I was told repeatedly - "the food is so good" so we shall see...9:30am – microwave my sunshine sandwich and submerge my ranchero sauce that comes with it in hot water to thaw. Am forced to speak with co-worker about the start of my diet and how this is the first meal that I am having on it and how I do not know how the food is – then forced to endure annoying jokes along with other assorted inane office banter… sunshine sandwich is ok – basically egg and turkey bacon on an English muffin… I can do without the ranchero sauce though.

11:15 – am a little hungry so I eat my peanut butter anytime bar… it is not big… after my first bite I am ok with this not being big… maybe I will try the other flavor next week – it is edible. I also eat an orange – it smelled good… my cube neighbors smell my healthiness.

1:00 – I smell food… it smells good… damn these people!

1:15 – oh look someone was kind enough to bring in pizza for people – yay – can I eat 7 pieces?!?! Ok, composure – I am strong and this is only the first day.. cannot cave yet

1:30 – “COOKIES!!” I hear someone yell… they all go after the platter – they are the yummy kind, they even have the yummy blondies that I like (can I die?!) repeat – nothing tastes as good as thin feels, nothing tastes as good as thin feels, nothing tastes as good AS THOSE COOOOOOOKIES!! Heheh I am ok…

1:45 - “SANDWICHES IN THE KITCHEN!!” Is this my lucky day? This might be time to eat my salad and warm up my stuffed chicken sandwich… I run into the same co-worker in the kitchen who again ahs to comment – on the plus side he said that he thinks I look great – thanks dude…. Sooo I am savoring the bready weird hot pocket thing and eating my salad…why is this dressing full of high fructose corn syrup? Oh well. Since salad is a “free food” meaning I can eat all of the non starchy vegetables that I want I am going for salad seconds… ehh too lazy

3:00 – plenty of cookies have been left – I could easily scarf 3 of them… why am I such a pig? I will probably have my apply in the afternoon... wooo


3:27 – eating an apple – pretending it is a cookie… the apple is good though I can’t complain. I need to buy more fruit and veggies I think – will do this after work.. yeah healthy girl!! and I am not referring to my affectionate name for my drink of choice (stoli, seltzer and lime juice)…

By the way I am perfectly ok that this will probably all be sabotaged in a week when I go to bf’s mom’s house for Xmas… she is like super-mom and cooks every meal, even snacks! You aren’t allowed to bring your dishes to the sink or help clean up… what?! My mom is great and stuff… but for instance hot breakfast every morning for guests would not be an option – bagels anyone?

4:00 – I want something to eat… or something. Actually this is the first downtime that I have had at work in the past couple of weeks… working a lot makes you forget about eating. Now that I am just cruising myspace and facebook something chocolate or – I KNOW a chocolate covered pretzel or peanut m&ms or something would be nice J

Ok – I’ll be ok - only 55 minutes to go! And then I go home and get
4:23 – I am hungry… wah!

4:30 – drinking more water… am trying to ignore it… I am trying to decide if I will have it in me to run on the treadmill if I go to the supermarket to get fruit first… yeah – need to work out immediately upon getting home and to the gym… fruit can wait.

4:53 – there is a god… almost time to get out of the cube!