10:52 – okay. Okay I didn’t have the prescribed dinner because I was invited out with my parents to dinner. I didn’t have a salad as my dinner, guess what, they didn’t have that on the menu… anyway, I didn’t have anything horrendous and I am going to work out twice today…

I had my silver dollar pancakes and veggie sausage this morning which tasted good. Opening the packet of lite syrup was not amazing however and I ended up exploding a bunch of it all over my desk and my phone – sticky… oh well – it was fine. I am getting a little hungryish and have been contemplating my anytime bar… I opted for the multivitamin though and I am going to have to buy a little fat free yogurt somewhere… I think the anytime bar is a better idea for me.

11:17 – actually the nonfat yogurt is kinda good. I think maybe better than that bar… but I just have to buy them and bring them in.

11:54 – I had a long conversation with Charles, my cube neighbor. Work stuff… I want to make more $$ next year… anyway, I am gearing up to go to the gym in a few minutes… I am going to work out twice today to make up for my non-diet dinner.

4:18 – been spacing out for a while. Did an hour on the elliptical and I am going to run after work… leaving in a minute. Lunch was good had a big healthy salad and a chicken hot pocket thingie – I am good :)

11:00 - Post Xmas – restart button!

Christmas doesn’t count because I had a food fest. The good news is, before I stuffed my face I lost about 2.5 pounds. Not bad, which means it will only probably take me about a week to get back to where I was originally! Hahah – It also doesn’t help that Santa decided that I was going to have a red Christmas if you know what I mean…

Anyway, back to square one – had the diet cereal which was ok tasting and going to eat my anytime bar soon I think… I think I should allow myself to be a little hungry today considering the gluttony of the previous days.

11:51 – recently ate my anytime bar and I will try and have my apple before I leave for the dentist. Yeah I am getting my teeth cleaned today. I hate that, but I like teeth so – need to go.

12:10 – maybe I will eat my apple right before I leave?

3:49 – got my teeth cleaned which – so glad it is over… and I am doing really well today!! Too bad I am going out for dinner with my family. I will try and eat something that is healthy etc. I will do my best. Also I am going to run on the treadmill when I get home… I think I am leaving in 20-30 minutes…. Holidays are very fattening :(

9:48 – Day 4, I am going to stop counting days. They are ordering pizza for us today that will be fun to avoid. As soon as I smell it I am going for a walk. Lucky for me I have my diet pizza for lunch today – how lucky can a girl be?!?!

Last night I had the chicken carbonara which was not bad although not huge. I cut up a lot of vegetables to toss in with it to fill me up. I also had the brownie for snack/dessert… I think that it isn’t worth it for that snack so much… what I realize is that the way they plan these seem like they vary the meals so that certain days that you may have a more caloric breakfast, lunch, dinner or snack you have lighter other meals so that it balances out.

10:23 – I got another, albeit smaller, coffee. Today is not going to be that easy. I am not that busy so my mind can wander. Also there is already free food (although I am not that into donuts) and I already mentioned what is happening later.

10:48 – eating grapes… they are dry or something, they give my mouth a dry aftertaste – weird?

1:32 – I am trying to hold off on the anytime bar but I think I might have to eat it soon…I love days before holiday weekends (even though technically it is Tuesday and some people are at work Monday) everyone is happy and chill – yay! I am ating some more grapes even though I am not enjoying the taste of this kind for some reason. I wish they were sweeter – like my ass! Hehehehe

12:19 – what I thought was Barnes & Noble is actually Borders – couldn’t they just merge or something jeez. My plan was to run over there at lunch and exchange a book and get something new as well as get some cards for people… there is a b&n a little walk from here – maybe I’ll just go there instead. Oh yeah this is all to avoid the pizza invasion that is inevitable.

1:35 – went with David to AT&T store to try and do something annoying that one has to do sometimes at a cell phone store… walked with him to our usual lunch spot but just got a side salad. Said no to dressing because I have the diet dressing and I haven’t tried the ceasar… came back heated up my pesto pizza (what a treat) and got a diet coke.. I have to think of an alternative to this dressing this stuff is nauseating…. Really bad. I hate diet dressing, I would rather just use balsamic and olive oil or just a tiny bit of regular… I might have to start doing that.

1:52 - I am trying to pick at my salad, of course the pizza is a distant memory at this point. I am thankful for my diet coke and looking forward to my cheese curls that I will eat at 3:30 or so.

3:03 – blah I am hungry… can I eat my snack? I am going to try and stick it out until at least 3:30… my annoying neighbor just told me his is ready to go home – I don’t speak to you sir… 50% of what you say could be deemed as sexual harassment.

I ordered boots online. I wonder if they arrived yet? I will get more water…

Drinking water and eyeing the cheese curls that I am allowed to eat for my snack…

3:25 – opened cheese curls. They are paler in color than the package would lead me to believe. Maybe that is good cause there is less food coloring and chemicals? They taste ok but the package is not very voluminous. I think that they could make it look like more food is they made it into cheese puffs ;) Really Jenny Craig should use me as a consultant. I could make their stuff much better. I am trying not to scarf the entire bag in 15.2 seconds.

3:40 – I am still nibbling and doing a good job at not snarfing the entire bag.. I did bite my tongue hahaha

4:15 – talked to my sister on the phone which wasted some time… finished the cheese curls… can I leave. There is nothing happening…they are playing ball… death….

4:35 – I am leaving soon : )

10:04 – day three…

Last night I made a vegetable bowl with all of the “free foods” which are basically non starchy vegetables – it wasn’t too bad… and then my meatloaf thing, which also was not too bad… I also had more grapes. My stomach is bubby as hell though…

I woke up hungry this morning… hungry, hungry… so on the way to work I bought a banana and ate half of it with my triple grain crisp cereal pouch… sue me. I feel good though; stomach isn’t feeling too rumbley yet. I will probably eat my anytime bar at 11…

11:00 – I am not starving which is very exciting!! I will eat my anytime bar though yay! And I am drinking more water. As we get closer to the long weekend I get happier. It is kind of good that I am going to the weigh in before the holiday so I can at least see my temporary improvement?

12:00 – ok I am a little hungry… but I don’t want to eat lunch so early… I think I am going to go shopping at dsw – shopping therapy help me!

2:07 – I ate my lunch along with a spinach, mushroom, carrot, onion, pepper and balsamic vinegar salad and beef chow mien. So far so good… I finished it a little while ago and only a tiny bit hungry… maybe I’ll have another diet coke… free diet coke! (but it is warm..) should I steal another one for later? Hmmmm also – my mouth tastes like onion, yuck.

2:25 - pretending to work for a little while – blah

3:05 - ate the other half of my banana. I might die by the time I leave here for work. It is ok… my stomach is shrinking (just do it faster) I hate being hungry it makes me mad.

3:19 – two diet cokes down…

4:11 – chewing gum, my onion breath from the salad I had was offending me… this might be something I have to do a little more, the chewing helps or something. So the funny thing is that this is only the third day and I feel like I should have already lost a bunch of weight – but I bet if anything I have lost like .25 pounds! But my appointment on Sunday will show me how much I have lost even though it wasn’t a full week…

4:53 – packing up to go home! Then run and then tasty dinner time! HA

9:12 – Day 2… I am alive and I am ok… last night I ran on the treadmill and then went to the supermarket to get more fruit and vegetables. I made myself a salad with a little bit of red peppers, carrots, onions, “broccoli slaw”, mushrooms and mixed greens – I used balsamic vinegar as my dressing (healthy!) and then had my chicken fettuccini last night which tasted ok but had I not made a salad as well as added a bunch of frozen broccoli and spinach I would have died… I was a little hungry the rest of the night – had some grapes and a tangerine – and then my treat!! Smores bar!! Ok it tasted good but it was teeny tiny tiny…. (maybe I am just a pig)

9:37 – the French toast sounded a lot better than it was… first of all I forgot the syrup – somehow I assumed this would be in the box or something... nope – whatever, I had a small packet of honey that I used instead – I think that is ok. It had a container of raspberries and blueberries… I don’t like them… I try to force myself to eat most of them… this is not starting out amazing… at least I am finding out which meals I like better. So far the sunshine sandwich – sans ranchero sauce is the winner…

9:40 – when can I have my first snack?

10:03 – when can I have my first snack again? Hehe

10:23 – ok not hungry now… maybe I have heartburn? I’ll drink some water…

10:38 – at 11 I will eat my phenomenal anytime bar… and at 12 I will go to the gym. Did I lose like 5 pounds already? Hahaha also love talking about my food w/ cube neighbor. “What is that Judy?”
“It is French toast”
“is that what was prescribed for you to eat or what they suggest?”
“it is a frozen package thing that is on my planned menu”
“you made that?”
“microwaved”

I think after this week is over I will have a good idea about what kind of meals I prefer to have even if I don’t love all the ones… funny about how much they said the food was amazing… although when I do the math the meals are not that expensive – I think it averaged 16 a day… although I also have to realize that I have bought fruits and veggies.. hmmmm whatever this isn’t forever – I wonder how many weeks I will do this…

11:08 – OMG looking at bags online I almost forgot my anytime bar… although I am hungry :(

12:00 – off to the gym

2:00 - just finished “lunch”

Earlier I went to the gym and did an hour on the elliptical machine. Came back to the office to see a platter of yummy things and some fruit – I cave slightly and grab some grapes – that is ok right?! Go to the kitchen to fetch the salad to eat with my “chicken salad kit”… salad is frozen – ok in the garbage… I have some shredded carrots and some sliced mushroom that’s aight…. Open my kit to find a spork! How thoughtful! Eat my applesauce despite feeling like a child or baby with no teeth and open the can of “chicken salad” – let’s say that so far today I am not convinced that the food is “so good!” what were these people eating before? Alpo?! But ok I ate some grapes too and the mostly edible chicken salad had some crackers along with my diet coke I am sated for the time being.

2:59 – my stomach feels bubbly… gassy? I don’t know… I guess my system is not used to eating this much fruit and vegetables which is a good thing I guess. I will try and wait until at least 3:45 to eat my beloved snack which is bruschetta veggie chips… I realized that the diet doesn’t say anything about water – but I am trying to drink a lot of it – I usually do anyway… watched The Biggest Loser finale last night and I am staying focused – these people did amazing things! Almost all of them lost at least 100 pounds! I am starting to think that I really want to lose 15-20 pounds? But I guess I’ll see…

3:45 – these bruschetta chips things aren’t too bad – but again… not so much food… the one positive thing about feeling hungry is that you feel a little skinny… I mean, you know how fat you feel when you are totally stuffed full? I feel the opposite :)

4:34 – the good news is I am not really hungry right now… the bad news is I have 26 minutes counting down… hehe more water?

4:53 – time to pack up. I am getting my bikini laser-ed and then chill time!

Ok FYI - last night I joined a new dieting thingie that gives you pre-made meals - I was told repeatedly - "the food is so good" so we shall see...9:30am – microwave my sunshine sandwich and submerge my ranchero sauce that comes with it in hot water to thaw. Am forced to speak with co-worker about the start of my diet and how this is the first meal that I am having on it and how I do not know how the food is – then forced to endure annoying jokes along with other assorted inane office banter… sunshine sandwich is ok – basically egg and turkey bacon on an English muffin… I can do without the ranchero sauce though.

11:15 – am a little hungry so I eat my peanut butter anytime bar… it is not big… after my first bite I am ok with this not being big… maybe I will try the other flavor next week – it is edible. I also eat an orange – it smelled good… my cube neighbors smell my healthiness.

1:00 – I smell food… it smells good… damn these people!

1:15 – oh look someone was kind enough to bring in pizza for people – yay – can I eat 7 pieces?!?! Ok, composure – I am strong and this is only the first day.. cannot cave yet

1:30 – “COOKIES!!” I hear someone yell… they all go after the platter – they are the yummy kind, they even have the yummy blondies that I like (can I die?!) repeat – nothing tastes as good as thin feels, nothing tastes as good as thin feels, nothing tastes as good AS THOSE COOOOOOOKIES!! Heheh I am ok…

1:45 - “SANDWICHES IN THE KITCHEN!!” Is this my lucky day? This might be time to eat my salad and warm up my stuffed chicken sandwich… I run into the same co-worker in the kitchen who again ahs to comment – on the plus side he said that he thinks I look great – thanks dude…. Sooo I am savoring the bready weird hot pocket thing and eating my salad…why is this dressing full of high fructose corn syrup? Oh well. Since salad is a “free food” meaning I can eat all of the non starchy vegetables that I want I am going for salad seconds… ehh too lazy

3:00 – plenty of cookies have been left – I could easily scarf 3 of them… why am I such a pig? I will probably have my apply in the afternoon... wooo


3:27 – eating an apple – pretending it is a cookie… the apple is good though I can’t complain. I need to buy more fruit and veggies I think – will do this after work.. yeah healthy girl!! and I am not referring to my affectionate name for my drink of choice (stoli, seltzer and lime juice)…

By the way I am perfectly ok that this will probably all be sabotaged in a week when I go to bf’s mom’s house for Xmas… she is like super-mom and cooks every meal, even snacks! You aren’t allowed to bring your dishes to the sink or help clean up… what?! My mom is great and stuff… but for instance hot breakfast every morning for guests would not be an option – bagels anyone?

4:00 – I want something to eat… or something. Actually this is the first downtime that I have had at work in the past couple of weeks… working a lot makes you forget about eating. Now that I am just cruising myspace and facebook something chocolate or – I KNOW a chocolate covered pretzel or peanut m&ms or something would be nice J

Ok – I’ll be ok - only 55 minutes to go! And then I go home and get
4:23 – I am hungry… wah!

4:30 – drinking more water… am trying to ignore it… I am trying to decide if I will have it in me to run on the treadmill if I go to the supermarket to get fruit first… yeah – need to work out immediately upon getting home and to the gym… fruit can wait.

4:53 – there is a god… almost time to get out of the cube!